If I had the chance to ask anyone about the past, the one person I would ask would have to be my mother.I would love to ask her about who my grandmother was and all the great things about her.I wish I could go back in the past to meet her and enjoy who she was as a person.I know if I was able to go back in the past,I would love to just see what a beautiful and amazing person she was.I never got to meet her because she died a year before I was born.I guess I am the reincarnation of who she was because my family constantly reminds me that I am so much like her,not just her name being the same exact one,but that she looked like me and even acted the same way I was.I wouldn't want to know all those big things,just this little thing would make my life so much better and fill a void I have in my life.

The last silly thing I did would have to be when I was in my government class today and the girls were talking behind me and I was trying to speak Spanish and I couldn't say the words right and I am Mexican and that's what made it sillier than it was.The laughed at me and I laughed at myself because I sounded so funny trying to speak a language I don't know how to speak.Everyday no matter what mood I am in I make sure to have some laughter in it.I don't let myself get down in the dumps.I know that laughter is the key to life and I make sure to have a little everyday,some days more than others,but I always make sure I have a little laugh.

I feel most defensive when someone questions who I am as a whole.I feel I have to prove something to someone when they come after me for my character.I feel as though people question my ability to think because I may not be the brightest bulb in the package, and I feel I have to get defensive about it because I have to prove that I am something more than meets the eye.

At times you love them,at times you hate them.Friendship is one of the hardest things in a teens life and man do I know it.I have a best friend who is more like a sister to me,seriously people think we're sisters because we're so similiar and look a lot a like and when I mean a lot a like I mean a lot.We both are short,wear glasses,have the same sense of style and are both mexican.But although we are so close,I feel in this past year we have grown a lot,some for the better.It's our senior year and yes we're both going to the same college,but it seems she has some problems.I mean all teenagers have problems,but it seems she takes her problems out on other people.She misses a lot of school because she's sick sometimes,sometimes she doesn't want to go to school because there's a presentation that day and she doesn't want to do it.We have another best friend and we both feel the same way about how our best friend is acting.School is the most important thing in our lives and she seems not to go.She gets mad if we say something about it,but I mean missing class is bad,escpecially if she's going to college next year.The one thing I don't get is that she misses so much school and yet gets better grades than I do.It's not far that I work my butt off and tryso hard in school and actually go to school, and yet she doesn't and she coasts through school.And she gets mad that me and my other friend are close now and it's like,well you don't go to school so we hang out more.She like wants us not to hang out when she's not there because she feels left out,but I'm not going to stop talking to my other best friend because you aren't there.I'm not going to stop living my life for you even if you are my best friend.She gets mad over the smallest things and it's hard to be around her at times because of the way she acts.If I say something wrong then that's pretty much the ruining of the day.Like I can't tell her how I feel because I'm afraid of the way she'll act.I mean of love her but sometimes I can't stand being around her.She has to have the center of attention and sometimes I don't want her to have it.I'm not being selfish I'm just being rational because the world doesn't revolve around her.Our other best friend has a boyfriend and don't get me wrong I didn't like him at the beginning but now he's grown on me.But she doesn't like him and totally shows it.She makes our friend feel bad because she spends time with her boyfriend.And she makes it seem like she spends more time with him than us but she doesn't.She says he's ruined her and ruined everything but he hasn't.I think he's great for her but I guess my friend is jealous or something about it.I mean she's like saying how she wouldn't act that way if she had a boyfriend and I'm thinking you would be the same way,but you've never had a boyfriend so you wouldn't know.Even my mom said that she'd act the same way. She gives me looks because I like a certain guy or says something mean about it.And it's like I don't say anything about who you like,so you shouldn't say anything about who I like.A true friend would just let me like whoever I want to like.She has a great personality and is lovely to be around when she's in a good mood but other times it's hard to be around her.Like at homecoming this year,our last of our high school years,she totally brought the whole mood down.At dinner she was fine,but once she got to the dance her whole attitude changed.She didn't want to dance,and man do I love dancing,she didn't want to have fun at all.I tried to get her to dance but when she did she didn't want to dance that long.She said the dance was lame because the music was bad,but the music was good music.She just wasn't having it because she didn't have a date.She left early but I didn't go and she got mad because I didn't leave with her.And when we were talking about prom she said she wasn't going because she doesn't have a date,and it's like you don't need a date to have fun when you have your friends with you.I mean a date would make it that much better,but it's not the end of the world if you don't have one.And now she's talking about how she's going now and has to "find" a date to go.I'm like if someone wants to go with you they'll ask you but don't go out and recruit someone just so you can have a date.And if she did have a date I doubt she'd dance because she didn't dance at Homecoming.She also thinks we plan things without her but we don't.We try to invite her when I decide to go over or something and she's like "Thanks for telling me!"But we just made the plans like ten minutes ago.It's hard to plan things with her last minute because she lives far away.And she gets mad if I'm the first to know something and she's the second to know.Like she HAS to know first and it makes me feel like I'm unimportant because I should know after her.I love her to death and do anything for her,but sometimes I can't handle being around her.I know I should say something but I don't know how to when I feel she's going to snap at me.Friendships are hard,and do I know it.